Just to make sure we have this out in the open: my brain works in weird ways. And thus I think oddly. I know this may be a shocker to some of you, but it really shouldn't.
That fact settled I can now tell you the following and you might be less surprised/weirded out: I view my life as a romantic comedy. Or as a movie in general. But mostly a romantic comedy. Not the good juicy part in the middle, where you're gripping your pillow tightly and dropping popcorn onto your lap as your eyes are glued to the screen because you just can't look away due to either a) a boatload of sexual tension or b) a moment where the heroine appears to be making a huge mistake and you can't help but wonder (even though you totally know how the movie is going to end because, lets be real, its a romantic comedy and they ALL end in a similar fashion) "Will she? Won't she? Please end up together!" No, so far my life is a like the beginning of a romantic comedy; the part where the heroine has just been established as the protagonist to root for. There is no romantic hero yet, or if there is, the heroine doesn't quite yet know it. Either he's just a friend or perhaps she hates his guts (or so she thinks, but really that hate is just a poorly recognized desire! The heart fighting the mind, etc.). In this particular romantic comedy (i.e. mine) the beginning has been going on for... wait when did I hit puberty? Oh yeah, almost 9 years (only 2 more months till I'm 21!). No romantic hero in sight.
Obviously this is not the healthiest way to view my life. While it is sometimes entertaining to play out scenes in my mind as they should occur("Why hasn't he called?" Cut to hero staring at the phone, turmoil in his eyes, because he is unsure if his love will be accepted. Timidly he picks up the receiver, dials and says "Hi, I was wondering... Would you like to ugh.... *insert boring activity to cover up the fact that he actually wants to ask her on a date here* tonight?") , rather than how they actually occur ("Why hasn't he called?" "Probably because he doesn't actually like you and the fact that he tried to kiss you at that party only means that he wanted to get some." "That's completely illogical. Men suck." "Welcome to Earth!"), it's also probably psychologically unhealthy. It gives one false expectations/hopes and that's never fun. But I like to think that when my hero does show up, his arrival is going to be twice as awesome because of my view on life as a RomCom! And our happily ever after moment is going to be so much cooler than everyone elses.
But lately, I've started comparing my life to other things. Specifically the TV show "Scrubs." I know! Just as strange and awkward. But really I do think its a better comparison and probably a healthier way to view my life as it is, in a way, more realistic. For example, the characters go through multiple relationships; we see what happens after the couples get together. They also don't stop growing after 90 minutes and suddenly come to a realization about life that happens a little to quickly - it can take them years! By which I mean whole seasons - like when JD kept going after Elliot! It took him 3 seasons (i.e. years!) to figure out that he wasn't in love with her!
Plus also, romantic comedies don't include characters inner monologues like "Scrubs" does. Seriously I can totally relate to JD! I muse on, like, everything. Except I don't think I get an awkward looking into the distance look on my face like he does *insert look here*. Do I?
Although granted this new analysis of my life may be slightly... colored(?) by the fact that I have been marathoning "Scrubs" since spring break. Usually watching at least one episode a day.
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